RumiNation: Comic Strips on Parenting

I’ve always loved drawing and sketching but I had stopped doing it after being told how bad I was at it in school. Starting this blogging journey has been very liberating, where I have realized that it is important to have fun and to just try my hand at doing all the things that I have ever dreamed of doing, and enjoy the process. And so I made some illustrations on little everyday happenings with Rumi. My husband and I had a great time laughing at some of the funny sketches of our family members and trying to recall all the funny things that Rumi says and does.

So here it is:

RUMINATION

Meet the characters:

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A change in my status in the family before and after becoming a Mom:

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Expectations vs. Reality:

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Baby Blues:

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The difference between Mom and Dad in the initial days:

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Funny conversations with Rumi:

On friends:

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On raising a multilingual child:

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Potty training:

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Planning an Art Activity for your child:

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With or without you

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A week without Rumi: when the child does NOT want to come home

It is just another usual, routine, Sunday evening scenario: Abhi and I are standing at the door with shoes on and our arms loaded with bags, saying goodbye to my in-laws, and Rumi is refusing to come with us; she wants to stay there. This happens every weekend. Whether she visits my in-laws or my Mum’s, Sunday evenings call for a temper tantrum and a bucketful of tears as Rumi begs and begs to not go home. You would think that waving bye to her and pretending to leave would do the trick but she bids farewell to us very happily. Ever since that trick has backfired, we generally have to take Rumi out to a restaurant and bribe her with ice-cream before bringing her home. However, lately she has become smarter than us and slyly enjoys her sinful French fries and a small glass of Pepsi, after which she begins her whining and screaming about missing Ayayah (Rumi calls her paternal grandma ‘Ayayah’ as a word derived from ‘Aai’)  and Nanu. So this time, we decided to try something new and let her stay on, thinking that letting her have another night of indulgence would satiate her and that she would be happy to return home to us and her toys and books the next day.

How foolish and wrong we were! Abhi dropped by at the bungalow after work to pick her up. He came back two hours later sans Rumi. I looked at him in surprise. “She refused to come and cried her eyes out.” We figured that another day would do the trick. The next day dawned without any such luck. Abhi came back exasperated and cross. He had tried everything he could, but Rumi had refused to budge. “Anurag nahi avdat” (I don’t like Anurag society, where we live) was her new mantra. She had also picked up some lovely Marathi jibes such as “Vahun jaa tu Baba”(Baba, just fly away!) which Abhi did not take kindly to and he did not have the heart to pick her up and just strap her in her car seat against her will.

We spoke at length about this strange situation of the child not wanting to come home. A quick Google search revealed that this was not so unusual after all, but most articles I found referred to working parents whose children did not like to be picked up from the daycare. These kids were usually acting out because they had actually missed their parents during the day.

My tendency to take everything personally went on an overdrive. “Why doesn’t she like us? What are we doing wrong? Why does she hate home?” I lamented. “Stop being dramatic” said the husband. “She does not ‘hate’ us, she’s just having fun there”. He also suggested letting her be for a while. After all, the bungalow was just a stone’s throw away. Everybody there was more than happy to have Rumi for a while. “Let us enjoy this time” he said and I reluctantly agreed, though I secretly waited for Rumi to miss me and be back home (It is one thing to voluntarily drop your child off and gleefully plan your free hours and quite another to have your child not want you).

The next few days were quite strange. I had completely forgotten how it had been in the days before Rumi, when I had all the hours in the day to myself! The house looked like it had never done before: every surface gleamed and was free of Playdoh chunks and food morsels and a treasure trove of long-lost objects was discovered between the sofa cushions. I ate peacefully without tiny fingers poking away at things on my plate. I could put on the TV and read. And nap. But it felt too quiet. Even after writing and planning blog posts, and cooking dinner, and digging out the flower pots, I had too much time left.

Meanwhile, the news from Ayayah’s was that Rumi was having the time of her life. New rituals had been established: teeth were brushed with Sushant Kaka in the morning, after which Kaka and Rumi lovingly anointed each other with liberal amounts of powder and Smita Kaku’s expensive creams. Bathing was Smita Kaku’s domain and meals were eaten with Ayayah while watching the dogs play in the dirt. Bedtime had been pushed to past midnight. Our daughter was in Toddler Paradise.

I woke up, however, to an empty, silent house with that glorious, indescribable, milky, sweet, heart-tugging baby smell that permeated the bedroom. I saw her two milk cups in the kitchen, the blue elephant cup and the pink Minnie Mouse cup and I remembered her funny perverse behavior, where whichever cup I poured her morning milk in, she asked for the other one. I had never, ever thought I would ever cry like this, but cry I did when I thought of Rumi’s sweet smile as soon as her eyes open and the way she throws her little arms around my neck. Teary eyes gave way to sobs that soon paved the way for irrational behavior; the kind that makes you think of senseless solutions such as fetching her back immediately (I would have had to carry her in my arms, uphill, as the husband takes the car to work) and then an absolutely baseless, unjustified irritation towards the husband (why does he always take the car??)

But many, many years of irrationality and spontaneous, regrettable decisions have prompted me to keep a list of calming actions handy so I consulted it and took the best possible step; I went for a long, hot bath, the kind that is impossible to enjoy with Rumi staring at me with wide-eyes from a bucket. When I felt calmer and better, I called Aai to speak with Rumi. She sounded so cheerful and happy on the phone that I had to smile, despite myself. I spent the day talking to supportive friends, asking for insights but nobody had been in a similar situation. Each of them, however, expressed envy that my child lived away from me so happily and asked me if I would rather have it the other way round, with a child clinging to me 24/7? None of them viewed it as unhealthy, they only understood it as Rumi wanting to constantly be in a space filled with people who indulged her. Thus calmed, I made it through the next couple of days in a hum of positivity and did some long-forgotten fun things such as getting drunk and watching a late-night movie.

Since Rumi wasn’t intending to come home anytime soon, the time had come to bring in plan B. Enter my determined mother who said “I’ll pick her up and see to it that she comes home.” Frankly, this was a ‘from the frying pan into the fire’ situation, because Rumi was now just going from one beloved grandparent to another. However, becoming a mother has given me a blind, mad, faith in my own mother’s superwoman abilities so I gave in. And I don’t know whether it was because of my mother’s words to her or a heart filled with longing for her Mumma or our bribery of fine-dining complete with French fries and Pepsi, Rumi was back home with us, a week after I had last seen her.

While writing this blog post, I could feel a sense of shame at my own inadequacy as a Mom and hypocrisy at writing a blog on parenting, when my own child prefers to be away from me. A nasty voice in my head kept saying to me “Ha. So much for this blog on parenting that you write. Your own daughter doesn’t want to come home to you. What’s the use of writing about activities and resources and a fancy-pants playroom, if Rumi would rather be away from it?” I felt deeply embarrassed.

But then I realized that no matter what I do, that voice that says “it’s not enough” is always going to be there. You just have to do things, in spite of that nasty voice, till it learns that nobody’s paying any attention to its whining. Yes, I write on parenting. I have had some insights and ‘Aha’ moments with Rumi that I enjoy writing about. But I certainly do not have all the answers. And that is OK. It is ok to write about the times that I fail, about the mistakes that I make. This writing helps me to think out loud. This way, pen to paper (fingers to keyboard) is how I search for answers, every time.